I talked to Misti and I feel like we can be real with each other now. No more lies.. No holding back. Shes my down ass bitch and I wouldnt change that for the world.
I finally made a doctors appointment.. That took a lot of weight off my shoulders.. I feel like I can breathe now.. I know its a shitty crutch to lean on.. But I need a crutch right now.. Its not going to be permanent.
I havent been talking to Chad. Yeahness. I have a new sense of strength suddenly. I think its coming from my boys. I have them back.. And they've worked shit out.
And Ive been talking to Kyle again lately.. We've hung out twice now and its good to see him. I dont know what happened.. Or whats happening.. Or what I want to happen.. But its not something Im concerned about. I enjoy his company. But this time Im not going to let shit go sour so easily.. Hopefully not at all.
I have a smile on my face and I think its genuine.