Everyone's past will come back to haunt them at some point in their life. The past few weeks my past has been trying to bite me in the ass.
First it's important for me to say that I used to be very adament that I did not and would not regret anything I'd ever done in my life. After all - I wouldn't be the person I am today had I done anything differently. That was a pretty good lie I told myself. I should have just gone around shouting YOLO (in fact there were times that I did exactly that). I didn't realize how ridiculous I sounded until I figured out that repentence doesn't happen without regret.
There are a lot of choices that I made that I wish I hadn't. When I was younger I didn't think that years down the road I would be annoyed at trying to grow thick eyebrows back because when I was younger I wanted pencil thin, perfect eyebrows. I didn't think that at almost 30 having small piercing scars and a meaningless tattoo would be a problem. That's just it.. I didn't think.. I lived impulsively. But these things really don't matter. These things will never define me.
And then there are some things that stick with you. There are choices that you've made that you will be known by or known for the rest of your life. Regardless of the person you've become there will always be some people that refuse to believe that you've changed.
That's where I am right now. In the past I would have defended myself against anyone that was going out of their way to try to torment me. I would have fought back with my words. I would have sought revenge. I would have let the negativity consume me.
Now? It's quite different. It's not a terrible thing to cut people from your life that add no value. Being consumed and overwhelmed with what people say about you is a waste of time. Revenge will solve nothing. In fact.. It's quite the opposite. The power is in prayer.
"Bless those who persecute you. Don't curse them; Pray that God will bless them." Romans 12:14
Who says a girl can't change?